My bike is a vintage 1973 Raleigh handed down to me by my father. The steel frame I use to bike those forty miles to and from class every day is the same one he used on his campus, way back in the Bronze Age. Sure, I've replaced the brakes, the shifters, the chain, the pedals, the wheels, and about half the rider, but the core of the thing is unchanged.
It's only natural, then, that I was replacing the brake cable when I discovered them. I'd been inserting a Dremel bit to cut some sheathe when I thought to wear eye protection, and what should I find when rifling through the mess called my father's garage but a pair of glasses that could have been older than the bike I was repairing. Safety wear, to be sure; the glasses were un-lensed, but the thick black frames were standard eye-wear right about the time NASA was sending Armstrong to the moon. Instantly recognizable. I used them to finish cutting the sheathe and pocketed them.
Now, here I am, in front of my bathroom mirror, a little afraid of what I'm about to see. Staring back at me in reflection is a twenty-or-so kid with dark hair and a strange expression on his face. He's vaguely familiar, but not the one I'm here to meet. I put on the glasses and take another look.
It's him. A little taller, maybe, skinnier in most places, but the face is unmistakable. It's my father, his signature eyebrows expressing their concern. He's younger. I shuffle my stance a bit, and he's become the picture from the hallway in the house where I grew up, a mildly scruffy future figure of authority not quite posing in a Cleveland airport. I take the glasses off, but he doesn't disappear until I force a blink for the third time. As I open my eyes, the stranger is back.
This is ridiculous. I'm ridiculous.
"You're ridiculous," says the stranger. I'm not listening. With slow resolve, I put the glasses back on. My father glares back at me again.
"Hi."
That's all that comes out. He's still there, waiting for me, but my words refuse to continue. I want to accuse him. I want to call him out, to prosecute him on a plethora of misguided parental deeds, but I realize that the kid in the mirror hasn't done any of them; he's just a kid in college, still waiting to take the E.I.T. and trying to figure out his new TI-30. He's an ambitious foreigner with a knack for circuit design. If I had met him anywhere else, we might have gotten into a conversation about physics together. We might even have become friends. But we're not, of course; some thirty-seven years and a pane of reflective glass divide us.
I can offer no questions. I certainly don't have any advice. "Dad," I say.
It surprises him, too.














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I don't really have much else to say about it. It's wonderful.
I'm a Mostly True Stories addict. It's almost like Where's Waldo. I pluck out these little (or big) fragments of you hidden everywhere inside the truth and the fiction, "There he is!" It's a fun adventure.
I think "ridiculous" is cheating on me with you. That hussy.
--
Says he's a poet
This time he's gonna blow it
'Cause he's dancing with his ego
I took a vow of silence
When he reads his work to me
I swallow words like a placebo
-Flesh Mechanic, Placebo
Ridiculous came my way. Who was I to say no?
Yes, until he loses them on the beach or some such place. I wonder how he manages to roam about without his glasses. Hopefully he doesn't lose his walking stick until the end. He might need it.
It just shows your lack of respect for me. I should have known ridiculous would run to you for comfort. How could you look me in the eyes (or... comment box...) and tell me you wanted everything to work out between us? That you believed in our harmonious happiness? Did you think I wouldn't find out? We were finally working things out. Or so I thought. I guess ridiculous was too busy in your mouth and your fingers to come by mine. I thought ridiculous just wanted some space. Well, you can have the slut.
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Says he's a poet
This time he's gonna blow it
'Cause he's dancing with his ego
I took a vow of silence
When he reads his work to me
I swallow words like a placebo
-Flesh Mechanic, Placebo
He's just afraid of being alone.
Who are you to judge? You don't know true love. You certainly don't know ridiculous. Ridiculous came to me, fragile and perfect even after everything you'd done to it, and asked for someone to care, and I was there. Do you know what that means? I was there for ridiculous. Where were you? Do you even know? Getting high off Mostly True Stories? There's recreational, and there's out of control. "Working things out?" Yeah, right. You were just waiting to crash.
I have to say I really love your way of looking at the world, if you see the world like stories, just little things everywhere that make worthy tales to be told. They're insightful, well-written (obviously) and beautifully timed. I enjoy them immensely ^^.
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~Don't Panic~
Who am I to judge? You were my friend. Ridiculous was (supposed to be) my lifelong companion. Don't preach to me about getting high off Mostly True Stories. The problem never would have escalated if you hadn't been supplying. Is that how it works? Develop a friendship over four years, make me care about you, give me these stories to try, get me hooked, supply relationship counseling, steal my word, and leave me in the dust?
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Says he's a poet
This time he's gonna blow it
'Cause he's dancing with his ego
I took a vow of silence
When he reads his work to me
I swallow words like a placebo
-Flesh Mechanic, Placebo
Thank you.
You know what? Yes. Clearly, my whole purpose in life, my mission in this world revolves around you. Because nobody could ever be so important as you; only you could justify orchestrating a plot so insipid that it requires years of invested time just to steal a relationship. That was my plan, and you figured out. How clever.
No! Don't you get it? I care about you! I thought the stories made you happy, but you made them into something else; you used them in ways for which I can't be held responsible. I helped you stay with ridiculous because I thought ridiculous would be healthy for you, but apparently nothing is. That's how miserable this is; I don't even know how to help you anymore.
Lies! You don't care at all! You just wanted someone to fawn over you. Someone to tell you your words were pretty and that their writer was, too. I was high off your words and you were drunk off my flattery. Well, you know what? I was lying! You write like an elementary school child. Perhaps it was endearing once, but now it sickens me. You used me. Well, ridiculous is using you. I hope someday you realize that. It doesn't love you. I hope that hurts.
--
Says he's a poet
This time he's gonna blow it
'Cause he's dancing with his ego
I took a vow of silence
When he reads his work to me
I swallow words like a placebo
-Flesh Mechanic, Placebo
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